Tuesday, August 17, 2010

31 Photos in 31 Days. Day 17

Today my darling hubby turns 29. I made these fun cupcakes today for us to have after his birthday dinner.  

I always make a big deal out of his birthday and I think a lot of it is to distract myself. 
Not many people know, (including some family, sorry if this is a bit of a shock) but today I feel like telling my story.
A long time before Michael and I were together I fell pregnant. I was 18, the father and I were not together, I had a casual job and I was still living at home, not exactly the best circumstances for bringing a baby into the world. After a lot of sleepless nights and many teary conversations with my best friend and my mum, who became a mum at 17 and always told me what a hard life it was, I decided not to keep it.
At first I was so relieved it was all over and I didn't have to think about it anymore, the more time passed the more and more I regreted it (and still do some days). When I hear about people struggling to conceive my heart sinks and I feel so so guilty even though I know at the time it was the right thing to do.
Anyway my due date was the same as Michael's birthday, (kinda creepy hey?) so today I would have a 7 year old, and if I did I probably would never had met Michael, and life would be very different.
It still amazes me how the universe works.

Although I appreciate all comments, please remember this is a very hard subject for me to talk about. I know everyone has their own view on it pro and against but this is a very sensitive subject thats obviously close to my heart.


  1. Happy Birthday Michael! The cakes look devine!
    Thanks for sharing your story Katie it is such a personal and hard subject but I can totally relate the circumstances may of been a little diferent but the out come was the same and in between year 12 exams I too had to make that choice. What's even freakier is that 'bub' would now be 7 (gulp). Thanks for sharing and one day maybe I will be brave enough to share my story xx

  2. I dont know how brave I was, it just kind of happened. It certainly wasn't the post that was in my head!
    Yr 12 exams are cruel at the best of times without having to deal with that sort of thing xx

  3. Happy Birthday to ur hubby. Lovely cupcakes:)
    I guess "destiny" is the word that comes to mind when things takes a different path and moves you in the right direction.


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